KatHunter

I am engaged to a wonderful man. He loves my body and sees no reason for me to change it, but he is supportive of me trying to lose weight anyway. Yesterday we went grocery shopping and he spent time with me reading labels and trying to find substitutes for staples in my diet that are not so good for my waistline. I am so lucky to have him.

I used the Food journal today, and it says in the margin to try and keep it at -250 through -750 cals a day… after your intake and activities and such… I think I am reading it right… at least I hope I am. Mine said -1050 or something to that affect, so I think I did well today.

Like I said in my previous blog, I am kind of lost when it comes to that thing, so I hope I have it right, because that made me feel kind of good… and I am not even hungry.

I think tomorrow I will try and get out for a walk or something. I never leave the house when Cory is not here, and he works a lot… Maybe that is part of my issue. This is a new area for me and I have been hesitant to go out on my own… I am so used to the city and having many things around me to divert my attention on walks and outings… it is so strange being in the middle of nowhere… intimidating even, Strange that a city girl would be afraid of the country, I always thought it was the other way ’round.

There are some beautiful woods here though, and being Pagan, with Samhain coming up, I do have some things I need to gather from the trees and land around here to get ready for the ritual… maybe some nature hiking is in order.

On a more downbeat note, I weighed in again yesterday… and it seems I GAINED five lbs. I hadn’t even started losing yet, so that stung a little.

Ok, this is pretty tough for me to do… I just strated tinkering around on this site today, and found the food and exercise trackers and such, and started to use the. I have to admit, I don’t really get it. All it looks like to me is that the stuff I eat is absoulutly terrible! And it probably is.

I really need some advice on what to eat and drink and such. God I am no good at this!

Well, I am starting this thing. Finally.  This is my first blog here in what will be a journal of my attempt at taking steps to loose the weight I have put on.

My profile tells my story, so I won’t repeat it here. But suffice it to say, I am stepping into an alien world here and need as much help as I can get. All I know is that I have no idea who it is looking at me in the mirror every day. Whoever it is, she is much bigger than I am comfortable with.

Weight has never been an issue to me in the past. I had always been thin. But the last year or so has been a different story. I am putting the weight on and fast. I have ruled out all possible health reasons for this, and have settled on the fact (with the help of my doctor and drug recovery people) that it is due to a major lifestyle change that I made recently that involved retireing from my job as a professional model. I shot up from 116 lbs to 190 in a year.

I refuse to starve myself anymore. I refuse to use drugs or other pills to loose weight. I want to do this naturally and healthily. I need help. I have no idea what I am up against. All I know, is I need to get myself back.

I hope to meet others here that I can travel this road with.